I want to live

I am a patient with bipolar disorder.

Two winters ago, my mania became so severe that I had to leave my job.

My family was shocked and hospitalized me for two and a half months.

As I slowly regained my sanity, I realized that if my bipolar disorder worsened, I could lose everything I had.

In order to not lose my life, I continued to take my medication diligently after being discharged from the hospital.

A year has passed like this.

Bipolar medication makes me numb.

I don’t react to delicious food or beautiful scenery.

So, the good things are decreasing and the things I want to do are decreasing.

There are no strong emotions, so there are no impressive memories.

Time just passes without any memories.

It’s like being dead.

I want to live.

I want to feel alive.






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