I started taking my medication again, and I can feel the side effects starting to kick in. This morning, I had some rice cake, and when I tried to pick it up with my hands, they were shaking. It’s so frustrating. I started to feel sleepy again a work, just like before. I was so…

I couldn’t sleep after 3 AM, so I thought I would be really sleepy all day, but it was better than I thought. It’s a symptom of hypomania. I was very tired, but I wasn’t sleepy. I still did a lot of work. I coded for the first time in a while and it was…

My wife often falls asleep very early in the evening. Yesterday, she also fell asleep very early. I need my wife to check when I take my medication, but she kept sleeping, so I didn’t wake her up and just took it. I hesitated for a moment, tempted to say I had taken the medication…

On Saturday morning, my wife asked me if I was taking my medication properly, and I honestly told her that I wasn’t. I had been gradually reducing my medication for about a month, and it had been about two weeks since I stopped taking it altogether. She asked me because my behavior had changed and…

Last year, I also stopped taking my medication arbitrarily and ended up being hospitalized. The reason I failed last year was because I followed my delusions. Many spirituality-related content teaches you to follow your heart. I couldn’t distinguish between the true voice of my heart and delusion and I unconditionally followed whatever thoughts came to…

Last night I couldn’t sleep well and woke up many times. Even so, I woke up a little after 6 in the morning, like I usually do. These days, my morning routine is roughly like this. I wake up and do yoga with my wife. After yoga, I do push-ups and take a cold shower.…

I borrowed a book called “Sensitive Is The New Strong” over the weekend. While reading the book, I had something I wanted to tell my first daughter, so I talked to her. And when I told my youngest to brush his teeth, I said “sending a signal” while making him feel the energy from my…

I couldn’t go on living this way, feeling so listless and unmotivated. A few weeks ago, I decided to gradually reduce my medication in order to live. I gradually felt more alive and healthier. When I took about half a pill, I could live my daily life with a smile on my face. I wanted…

I am a patient with bipolar disorder. Two winters ago, my mania became so severe that I had to leave my job. My family was shocked and hospitalized me for two and a half months. As I slowly regained my sanity, I realized that if my bipolar disorder worsened, I could lose everything I had.…